My blogging and my journal have both been on hold. Since April 2018 I seem to have been getting progressively better. Strange because they discovered a large blood clot, a pulmonary embolism, going into my lungs. But after being put on Xarelto , and anticoagulant, I seem to be improving. The chronic cough has been subsiding and, although I start feeling quite poorly if I don't have a lot of fluids in my system, I've been able to move closer to a normal life.
Most of the time this has brought me great joy. Sometimes it brings me fear. With my ego there was a part of me that figured I would not get to the issue of Alzheimer's or senility. Now I wonder. I am moving towards a 72nd birthday in September and still working and still enjoying the work.
But things have been changing in my relationship to God and in my relationship to his Blessed Mother. I have been reading Danny's book on the Louisa Picaretta and the Divine Will (available on Amazon as a free Kindle link). And things have been changing. Mary was no longer simply the Jewish mother who walked on the earth with her son. (An image that I "liked" but had its limitations.) Mary was now becoming that pure being who was created by God with a totally unique and special message. She was the human being who was to embody the Divine Spirit right from her conception. I cannot articulate all but as I pray the rosary each day (when I am on my treadmill to keep my lungs active), I see even more richness in those ministries that I follow. And as I get more involved in the virtual-reality technologies I can see ways that her message and that of Her Son can be brought out through this media. But I am so far behind getting there because of the tremendous obstacles and learning curves. I am blessed though in that it is part of my work and my job as an academic-- to teach others how to use these tools -- so I keep on learning more as I can.
Susie had been helpful initially with moving me into these virtual-reality spaces for teaching religious education. She has been struggling with the technology and I realized that I need to move that forward myself. It does seem every time I tried to make one forward step there are more steps to do. But if Jesus wants this to happen, if it is His Will, then please make it happen Jesus. I would most certainly like this to materialize but I know my own limitations.
So Jesus, the Blessed Mother, the Holy Spirit, and God The Father please guide my work. I am excited about bringing a tribute forward to you, but I also see my t0o-big ego at work as well. I do thank you for the extended life you've been giving me. I don't know when you were going to call in my number but I am getting more peace and I am breathing a lot more easily both figuratively and literally.
