Jesus, I am beginning to see you in my walk-around prayers.  As I have sleepless times and wake up and put my rosary beads in hands, I find I can begin to see the rosary or the divine mercy chaplet with a few more of those flashes of insights into your larger purpose.  The family matters have been strained with issues around Paul's upcoming death too.  I have not behaved as well as I should.  Too easily I crawled back into the human whining and jealousies and fears that I've always had.  You would think I have a better perspective looking at eternity with clearer lights right now.  But the human flaws keep surfacing.

Thank you for having Niko bring me to church.  I hope it is helping his soul, it certainly is helping mine.  I try spend too much time in church wondering if it is connecting with him.  However, it is nice to sit next to him and know that he has the patience and caring to bring me to church.

As I begin to see all the pain and suffering that you went through at Calvary, now that I can identify more with frustration and pain and the discomfort, I can see that you came into all those "cranky" portions of our world.  All the things that aren't working the way we expected them to work.  Even all those things that aren't working according to what we believe to be your plan.  Help me to reorient my life.  I am moving more back into some of my science education work.  I believe that's what you want it to do now – let me know if I should change my course.  Honestly, it can be a good distraction to have something to think about beyond my family issues, my health, and even my prayer life.  I hope that you understand that I wanted the moving forward with what mission you have given me on earth as part of my ministry.  I do feel the call to pray for those who are at the an hour of their death, and I bring this into any of my spiritual prior wanderings.  Thank you for the day and for my reasonably comfortable state.