My most recent world has become very secular and family.  I am enjoying having the time to reconnect with my children and grandchildren, however it is taking time from my journey to you.  I am also working on the course for Holy Apostles college and Seminary.  It almost makes me feel as though I am back into my old life without the burdens of constant emails and administrative issues.  With the help of Niko's driving, I have been able to get to mask almost every day.  Thank you lord for these blessing.

I want to try to finish this course for holy apostles so that it can run independently – it will be a MOOC.   I am finding the ambition and the drive to get a course together, just as I was doing before I was given the diagnosis of the mesothelioma.  But now I have conflicts about this.  What world should I immerse myself in at this point dear lord?  Soon I will be finished with this course.  Soon Tasha will go back to California.  And hopefully soon Niko will have a job.  My life will become much more quiet and more uncertain.  Where should I be placing my heart and my loyalties at this point to Jesus?

I suppose having some time to be little bit more "normal" and returning to my old life isn't that bad.  Please infuse your will into my efforts Jesus.  I know that these reprise are temporary.  Before too long they have to think about whether I need to go through with surgery or chemotherapy.  Help me use this time well do more.