I am still very torn between the world of school and teaching and the world beyond.  I started reading from the beginning the book by Fulton Sheen "life of Christ" and I think it will give me more insights into who Jesus was as a man and where he wants to lead me today so that I can come to know him more fully in this life and be more prepared for the next life.

I have been working with Tasha's children and in virtual reality, and I hope to continue doing that the least for a while.  It is complex and there are many different signons, passwords and permissions.  I don't know how much will survive beyond me of this environment, particularly if the server rental fee is not continued.  I was always aware that with technology that would be the issue of what would survive beyond you.  But now I have many materials and I want to pass them along, but as Dan  reminded me, the devil will make the feel that passing along my legacy is the most important thing.  I ask you Jesus to help me understand where to focus and where to let go.  I'm trying to simplify things in this three dimensional virtual space so that my children and grandchildren may continue to use it.  I know that it is a tremendous gift from god to have these environments and resources, and I tried to get that out to the world through teaching.  However I have not made too many strides in this area – that is with which I have been successful; I spent a lot of time working in it – so I hope that Jesus you will let me know what I have to do in this environment.   Dear Jesus, help me spend this time well.  I'm grateful for the family that has come forward and is offered support and prayers; thank you for giving them to me.

Before I go to church today, I will try dictating more information about the courses that I have created for my job.  In three weeks I will be able to devote myself completely to the sabbatical and that will allow me to have more freedom to devote myself to the science and Technology Materials that I agreed to work on.

(Again, I am working with speech recognition so sometimes the words may get garbled where the capitalizations get a little funny. )

This is the first Friday and I will be staying to prayer the rosary in front of Jesus.  I will be going to Saint Clements church in Saratoga Springs; they have the most beautiful three story image of Jesus dying or dead on the cross in front of the church behind the altar.  I like to see it.  Sometimes I open my eyes to see it, but basically in church I close my eyes.  I find it distracting sometimes to be looking very directly at the priest.  In some way it makes me uncomfortable.  But too often when I close my eyes I go into my usual mental "to do" list and become distracted.  I hope Jesus that you help me know how to stay focused better when I am a church; I certainly should be thinking more about that relationship with you then about all the things I have to do in this life.  Teach me how to focus when I am in your presence and give me the faith and belief that I can finish up my other things later when I'm no longer in your secret space.

I have to leave now to finish up some of the work; again, dear Jesus, help me when I'm in the church to recognize your presence.