Sitting here in the hospital, I now have some time to get back on the computer.  It’s been a busy time with testing in preparation and treatments.  I haven’t been able to get to church for communion since Sunday, and now this Wednesday.  I am going to ask if anybody can bring the communion.  I miss that.  Now that I have my computer setup, maybe I can get to the EWTN as well.  He

Generally I have been able to stay fairly close to Jesus through my prayer life and through my business to church on a daily basis.  However, with all the turmoil and visits to me in the hospital, I cannot keep the same perspectives.  Jesus, I’ve been able to live a somewhat hermit-like life over the past few years.  I have enjoyed that luxury.  Please teach me how to see you in the bustle of good people that are helping me with my healthcare and in a wonderful family that has been very solicitous.  There is still the sense of shock and did not help – could I really be dying?  With so many people praying for miracles, and Nikko has been very good about getting the word out to many people, it seems like I might be getting better.  Even though I had this trial with the virus, I do not feel particularly sicky yet; I am not getting the flu-like symptoms that they said might happen.  I don’t know if that is good or bad from a recovery perspective.  I am continuing to read the book by Fulton sheen, “Life of Christ “ and it is helping me a lot to understand Jesus and his times much better.  Keane shows how Jesus was the fulfillment of old prophecies, but he constantly points to his pre figuring of the crucifixion in all of this works and interactions.  Jesus, He seemed to be so port crane and they know I have opportunities now to offer solace to others through the prayers increases that it might be able to acquire.  However, I still feel very much In control of my life – although the goals that I have are shifting tremendously.  I am thinking much less of returning to work at college, but I am not thinking of having less ability to communicate and interact.  Please guide me to what you want me to do with my time and talents given what ever time I have left.